A funny thing happened tonight... as I stood in the shower thinking about running, and my upcoming marathon I felt an immense sense of calm come over me. I had an epiphany. While I really, really want to hit my goal time for this race, what is more important is that I finish strong and healthy.
The new PR would be amazing, I won't lie. But for me... for this journey... finishing another marathon... in the same year as my first marathon... is a HUGE accomplishment.
I'm stronger now. Faster. More confident in my abilities. Crossing the line in San Diego changed me forever. I know now and forever that I *do* have it in me to finish a marathon.
This same sense of calm came over me before San Diego too... it came much closer to my race last time. Somehow, I knew then that I would be just fine in the marathon- and I was.
This race will be a little different. I won't have the same support group I had last time. The course is much tougher than before. My expectations of what I want from myself are higher now. And yet... none of that matters. I know that I will run MY run. And in the end, that's really all I can do. After all, the Tiffany necklace will be the same one whether I finish in 4:59 or 5:15... ;)