Zen...



A funny thing happened tonight... as I stood in the shower thinking about running, and my upcoming marathon I felt an immense sense of calm come over me. I had an epiphany. While I really, really want to hit my goal time for this race, what is more important is that I finish strong and healthy.

The new PR would be amazing, I won't lie. But for me... for this journey... finishing another marathon... in the same year as my first marathon... is a HUGE accomplishment.

I'm stronger now. Faster. More confident in my abilities. Crossing the line in San Diego changed me forever. I know now and forever that I *do* have it in me to finish a marathon.

This same sense of calm came over me before San Diego too... it came much closer to my race last time. Somehow, I knew then that I would be just fine in the marathon- and I was.

This race will be a little different. I won't have the same support group I had last time. The course is much tougher than before. My expectations of what I want from myself are higher now. And yet... none of that matters. I know that I will run MY run. And in the end, that's really all I can do. After all, the Tiffany necklace will be the same one whether I finish in 4:59 or 5:15... ;)
3 Responses
  1. Laura Says:

    Great attitude and very well said. I am freaking about my marathon...it is a small one and there is a good possibility I will be dead last...oy...


  2. FruitFly Says:

    You have the perfect attitude! Heck by just running and not aiming for the PR, you might have more fun ... and still get it! PLUS the necklace!
    ~RR


  3. You're going to have an amazing run. You've been training so hard! I need a moment of zen, but maybe that's not possible for a 1st time marathoner!